Dang...where is time going? I swear, the older I get, the quicker time moves! It's April...It's my sons birthday month! He's going to be 14! What? 14? Crap! when did that happen? That means he's going to be driving in 2 years. I'm NOT ready for that!!! Even though he's getting older...and at times has a bit of an attitude....he's still a momma's boy. There are days when I wish I could just hold him, sit him in my lap and rock him! omg..the other day at baseball...this lil boy, who's voice reminds me so much of Christopher at the age of 2 was asking his mom if he could "hold her" which really meant that he wanted her to hold him. Christopher used to say the same thing, "mommy hold you, mommy hold you". my eyes filled with tears!!! there are times I want that back. don't get me wrong...i don't wanna go through my life again and live through all that hurt again, but I would take having him a baby again..because he's growing up way too fast! he's almost taller than me. Not sure how I'm feeling about that. In less than 2 months, he'll graduate 8th grade and be entering high school. REALLY not sure how I'm feeling about that! I'm just trying to soak up all I have of him now, because in a short couple years....he'll be too busy for me. Thankfully at the moment I am able to enjoy all his baseball games. although he didn't get to play in his baseball game last Saturday. He "caught" a full game on Thursday night, got hit in the hand with a bat, and had a swollen thumb. It was his choice to not play. I didn't want him to either. But I made him dress in uniform and go support his team. And that we did. And it was TOUGH for him...he wanted to be in the game! Not watching it!
he's so sick of me always having a camera in his face. ugh! I tell him, if you just go with it, no one will even notice, but the minute you start fighting it, you're drawing attention to yourself. duh!
I've been busy working on dolls. It "was" warm out, so everything was drying nice and quick. Now it's cold again. What is up with the weather? weird! anyway, here's a sneak peak of what I just put on my WEBSITE. You'll have to go visit to see everything!
I want to thank everyone who sent me emails and comments about my last blog entry. Times are really tough right now, and I'm struggling to get through it....and I have alot of support but there are times when I break down and cry, and that has been alot lately. But all your support means EVERYTHING to me! I know that I'm not the only one going through this, I know this world is a complete mess.....but sometimes when I look around, I do feel like I'm the only one in this mess. With gas prices...I don't know how any of us can afford to go anywhere. And they say it's going to get worse? how? how much more can we take? really?
enough negative huh? I'm going to go make some more dolls....they make me smile. And Christopher has a game tonight if it doesn't rain.....crossing fingers for no rain! Have a wonderful day everyone!!!!! Love ya!
